Hiya, Ladies and Gents.

I have been here at Massassi for awhile (mostly lurking), and I haven't posted recently, but I'm Happily endowed with certain liberties this current day. I.E.: Time-- so I'll probably Have some more time to Play with Jed, Radiant, 3ds max, and the like.

As for the matter currently in scope.

I've been in an on-and-off relationship for the past year with an all-too-seemingly-unstable of ladies. I do know that I truly feel love feel her, because I can recognize the boundaries between the love and the false infatuation that has grazed the lands as of recent. Though in said relationship I find myself wholly torn between paranoia and comfort. As strange as the thought of being so torn sounds- I'm at aforementioned breaking point presently-- should I trust this lady whose gone through every relationship she has been through unfaithfully, and yet, all of her previous relationships barely last a month. and we're on the YEAR mark. Hmm... I'm at an troublesome impasse. Perhaps I should divulge a tad bit of background, then?

Last year, at a local french society I met her- beautiful, head to toe and all things in-between-- she's into a good deal of the things I'm into, as well-- Theatre, Piano, Computers, Writing, Dancing and the like, As well she has a similar past to my own-- Hardly full of things to brag about on both of our parts-- while hers include matters of relationships, and matters of her family. My personal history fully entails substance abuse, violence, and similar things.. Here we stand, though-- Unsure of which way we could go, and I am left sitting here, questioning my faith in her, and her faith in our relationship..

The matter that concerns me is that she has other "friends" who have been openly confessing their feelings for her, and I'm as of yet unsure about that whole matter. I, probably a tad to forward have questioned her recently and merely received a brush-off and accusations of my lack of trust. It isn't entirely true that I do not trust, and yet my faith lays in her, but there is hardly enough to press into the individuals she is fancied by.

Bah-- A complex relationship- another question is as to whether or not this internal conflict is in anyway symbolic as to my fear of trust and commitment, or is it merely a cathartic epiphany?

More breaking news- after recently talking to her, I found her strangely cold-- she had a performance last night, and spent a good deal of time with one of the gentlemen I loathe who has confessed to her his affinity. Coincidence? WHO KNOWS? Ay-- Therein lies the proverbial rub.

Please help me, Massassians- I'm incredibly lost.

Geez, Jim, I don't know on this one. Umm... Well, the fact that you've madeit so far longer than any other person she's had a relationship if recent years suggests that perhaps you're something special as opposed to the previous ones she's been in, but her history does leave alot of suspicion. I would try to trust her until you start seeing some sort of physical proof of cheating. I wouldn't jump to conclusions,though, because you mgiht scareher off like that. But, hey, what do I know? That's my two-point-five cents.

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Clarinetists, unite!

-writer of Bloodwing: Fallen Soldier
(no site up yet...)

Commit or get out. and don't be suprised if you can't trust her.

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I'm not an actor. I just play one on TV.

My paranoia tells me in good english that Adam, supposingly a friend of my ex's, got coincidently more friendly when she started getting cold towards me.
My answer? Kill Adam.

Your answer : Paranoia has a bad rap. In fact, its the source of an amazing amount of truth. We fella's can be more insightful than [the wolves of isenguard] expect. Your paranoia is born of simple observation and analysis of the given situation. Don't give in to the fear that things aren't ok, but don't dismiss it.
Confront her. If she's been playing, she'll have a black eye to explain to all her friends.

I'm not a psycho, I'm just pi**ed.

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Even the mightiest of men are crippled by love.

if(getThingFlags(source) & 0x8){
  do her}
elseif(getThingFlags(source) & 0x4){
  do other babe}
else{
  do a dude}

Well, It's over--

She ended it.

Have a nice day..

Don't waste your energy. They aren't worth it.

Eh-- Well

All good things, eh?

Off to a Pub-

Night, lads.