Hi everyone.

I finally managed to get online in this place, yippee. I thought I'd write about my experiences in the past few days.

I've been suffering of a panic disorder esque thing since 2001, but I was fine for the past years, thanks to a certain mind-altering drug. Lately, however, the symptoms have been coming back, which I've assumed to be related with a new drug that I started taking for my osteoporosis (brittle bones). It got so bad that I was sent to a mental hospital, which is where I'm writing this from.

Ever seen "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest"? Yeah, this place isn't quite like that, but the patients are ****ed up nonetheless. The section I'm literally locked up in has schizophrenics and whatnot. There's this elderly lady who thinks I'm trying to kill her or something, an old man who talks about God knows what to himself, people like that. These people are seriously bothering me, as I believe they would anyone with even a grain of sanity left.

Because the effect of my old drug (Paxil) seems to have worn off somehow, thus giving me panic attacks and anxiety, I'm on a new drug called Renerom, basically hoping it'll affect ASAP so I can get out of this hellhole.

I'm trembling as I type this, thinking of home and how I've learned to appreciate sanity on a whole new level. It's very comforting to know that there are sane, mentally stable people reading this, something that this place (with the exception of the staff) notably lacks.

I'd also like to say sorry to anyone I may have said anything to give a bad impression of myself. I know this is just massassi.net on just the Internet, but right now this is for me acting as a getaway from what I'm going through right now.

Appreciate your health, physical and mental. I used to think losing your mental health is somehow better than losing your physical health. It's not.

::huggle::

My thoughts/prayers/human sacrifices go out for you.

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Frightening the very small and very old since 1952.

Let's see. I don't know AT ALL how I should reply.

Hopefully things get better for you.

Good luck, and remember that you'll survive.

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<landfish> FastGamerr > Satan

Wow... Of all the nut-cases around here I would defintely not have picked Krok as being the first one committed

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[This message has been edited by Spork (edited May 17, 2004).]

*hug*
man, keep trying to get to these working computers. we can be like a port hole to the outside world. I hope that med. works soon.

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i miss my krok.

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There is a thin line between insanity and stupidity. I am that line.

Out of curiosity, who would you have thought?

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"This thread is still alive? Someone should kill it."

Damn man, that sucks. Sorry to hear it. One thing I have to ask... Does the mental hospital have a fast net connection?

Frenchy McGill over there, the guy in the corner with the top hat and pigtails petting the 2-foot tall replica of a working stained-glass window. Oh look he's coming over here, hi Frenchy!

I like cheese.

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There is no spoon.

Kroko! so that's where you've been. hurry up and get outta here so you can enjoy the world once more!

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I'm walking towards dead end, and I'm walking all alone. Two steps ago I passed insanity - Aleksi Laiho

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It must suck to be in there just b/c you're having depression problems instead of having really gone off of your nut. I feel for you, man.....

BTW, do they still use cells that have padded walls made out of old piss-stained matresses?



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Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

Well, Krok, all I can really do is hope you come out of this alright.

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Man, my future brother-in-law takes Paxil and is a worrysome little guy. When you get out, let me know of anything I could recommend before they send him in a place like that if he has a really bad panic attack. And I hope that medicine kicks in.

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"I'm seriously going to hump you until you scream like a banshee!"

wow. I wouldn't have thought panic attacks would ever warrant having to stay in a hospital. I have them myself, and it's horrible enough but yours are obviously alot worse. I really hope you pull out of this soon and are able to go back home.

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Ach, just to let everyone know, Kroko can't read this thread at the moment, as the staff has re-locked him up again. It might take awhile before he responds.

In any case, Kroko, I'm sorry to hear of this. Your presence at #massassi is already missed, and I've got quite a few bears in here with your name on them, so do hurry back. I already miss my fellow devotee to e-god.

Also, my apologies if the message I had sent you on Friday was perhaps a bit out-of-place, I didn't realise it was this serious.

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Hi Spork! Whatcha doin'?


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Whenever you are able to read this, good luck, get better. I really hope this all works out for you.

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Steal my dreams and sell them back to me.....

May the Force be with you!

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May Kekekekekekekekekekekekekekekeke Ruusbari Ruusbari Ruusbari Ruusbari be with you. Or something.

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Sometimes it's better to light a flamethrower than to curse the darkness.

You got sent to a mental hospital for anxiety attacks? That's just not cool. Hoping for the best.

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I'm not an actor. I just play one on TV.

No matter who in Finland thinks you are crazy enough to be locked up, I will still know that you are sane, as will the rest of Massassi.

Good luck.

Steve belongs in your place. Alas, tis a cruel world.

EDIT: Actually, my grandma is in one of those memory care centers. I pity you if it is anything similar. It is a sad thing to see...be thankful.

[This message has been edited by PnHobbit (edited May 17, 2004).]

You don't belong theeere. They should put this strange lady I saw instead:

I was minding my business walking down a street and suddenly this short rotund woman swerves at me, exclaiming "Tule Kristuksen veren nimessä" ("Come in the name of Christ's blood"), or something to that effect, giddily through her brown stained teeth.

I dislike being stuck in hospitals (it's the bizarre smell). In general, I dislike all municipal buildings. I can't possibly imagine how horrible it must feel being stuck in a mental hospital. I had a friend who worked with a bunch of senile octogenerians and she told me of a bunch who would try to escape (in their wheelchairs) every time they heard a siren because they thought the soviets were invading again and they wanted to get to the frontline to the action. "Ryssä tulee, perkele!" *scuttles of in wheelchair and crutches*. Very tragicomic.

I hope you feel better. Summer is just around the corner with all it's requisite midnight sunsets and swarms of mosquitoes. Not a time to be spent in such a place.

Speak for yourself Mate!!!

LOLOLOLOLWTFMyoldManisaMushroom etc etc

/me dribbles

QUACK!

Hope you get better my European friend

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woah, good luck getting out of there mate

On a semi-related note, my friend Lesley was commited last week for homicidal tendencies.


I hope you get out soon, Krok. And remember, trust no one... *slides back into shadow*

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Hope you get out soon.


You'll be in my prayers.

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"It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has exceeded our humanity."

-Albert Einstein

Hope everything works out for you and you get out soon.

Best of luck man.

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Sorry to hear that, hope you get out soon!

Hmm.. they have panic disorder patients in with Schizophrenics? I'm doing abnormal in psychologyat the moment, and that isn't right. They are completely different disorders and levels of sanity. Oh, well. its not like i can do anything. I hope you get out of there soon, and that this medicine works well.

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Well I hope things get better.

BTW, Happy birthday

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Two years ago I had my student nursing Psych rotation, and we had to spend a lot of time in the state mental instituion. of course, unlike the unfortunates, we had keys. holy cow, there's some crazy people in there. But theres some people you would consider normal in there too. I'm just glad I'm not a psych patient.

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"The funniest thing about time is when it doesn't. I'll leave you hanging there for the moment, and let you age while the shadows don't lengthen, if you see what I mean." ~~Steven Brust

And you always thought I was the crazy one?!

Heha, guess you beat me too it, shame that you got sent to hospital purely because of medication.

You could always try and escape I guess....

anyhow, i hope you see this message soon and i hope you get out pretty sharpish, it must be a dodgy place.

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Drugs & Stupidity, Tons of it.

I'm sorry I threatened to ban you!

You should tell them your friends from 3000 miles away say you're not crazy at all and that they should let you out. That will surely work.