...with existing?

I just had a thought, shared with #massassi, that I could easily see myself commiting suicide (nowhere in the near future, i don't want sympathy or attention about this, its besides the point) because I got bored with existing.

I can sometimes feel it now, every single action I perform feels like its been done by me a million times before, and its not really worth doing many more times.

I think about doing things to add some interest to my life, but everything I think about seems trivial and pointless... its result, only a few chemicals being released into my brain to make me feel "happy" or "nervous" or "apprehensive" (You should all be familiar with these, i'm sure you've experienced them a million times before).

Another point that comes up seems to be that every other person my age seems to be "living life to the max" or whatever phrase you want to use to fill the blank. I don't get it, they seem to get fun out of the most stupid of things.

Seeing the same dimentions, colours, people and sights every day is giving me a bad head. I am also aware that this wouldn't change with location, because everywhere is the same. I've been told that I should try new experiences... I've decided that theres nothing new to experience, its all just the motion of chemicals going through the brain, without those chemicals, we would act like zombies or something, but is there really much difference, I don't understand somebody who can go through the same routine every day for years and years, I know I couldn't cope.

Bah, i'm gonna stop ranting because I want to go to bed soon and typing this stuff gets the mind working too much.

Any thoughts on this? Because it all seems pretty natural to me, i'll probabls go to bed soon. Sleeping is fun because I don't notice anything.

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Drugs & Stupidity, Tons of it.

GO sky diving or base jumping or rock climbing or something. You jsut need to do more exciting stuff.

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You need Jesus.

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A major cause of this is being in a single place too long.

I don't know how old you are, so moving isn't always an option. I feel VERY similiar to the way you do. My solution is moving clear across the country to NYC (from seattle).

If that doesn't work, I'll do something else. Also, you may just have depression (if you aren't aware of it already). Find someone to talk to about it.

And when you think of something to "change things up", and then you figure it's trivial, that's just self-doubt. Do the ****ing thing anyways

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I think you are wrong that "everywhere is the same". How do you know this? Have you actually been everywhere?

As for nothing new to experience, well, I wouldn't agree with that. I'm sure you can find something new and interesting to do. Bored with the same old chemicals flowing through your brain? Why not try some new ones? Just find the nearest container of solvent-based glue/paint/whatever, open it, and take a deep breath (NOTICE: I DO NOT SUGGEST YOU ACTUALLY DO THIS)

In any case, it can be absurdly easy to break out of a cycle of boredom like yours. Just try to do some different things, change your daily routine, etc. You'd be surprised how much that can help.

Anyways, hope this helps somewhat.


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I know the North-East is boring mate, but there's plenty to do to take your mind off the drudgery of normal real life - start with the simple things, I dunno, reading for instance, or take up art or something - try and better yourself: I find if my mind's troubling me, learning a new skill helps - even something trivial sounding, like learn to yo-yo, or take advantage of the decent weather and burn some ants in the back garden. Oh, and there's always new tunes to learn to play... or write songs (you're still in a band aren't you?)



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If at first you don't succeed, lower your standards.

Isn't this a form of depression?

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Because you're as bored as I am
"This world is made of love and peace!"
"Let's live today, let's live tomorrow, and let's live the day after that, even if it means living in eternal pain."
- Vash the Stampede

this is VERY interesting man...

but really, the tedium of non-existence would overwhelm the tedium of existence. Like you said, you didn't want sympathy, and I'm not giving any, but: suicide? don't, please.

Anyhow, do what you can to vary stuff up... I know, going through the educational and economic machine that is society seems like nothing special personally, because everyone does it, everyone has done it, and everyone will, but it's the details that make YOUR life worth living and special, so make sure these details are a part of your life every day, y'know?

If you ride the bus home every day, don't. Walk one day. stop, meet someone, blah blah blah.


do stuff! it's a beautiful world, and the fact that every human shares the same dull and exciting experiences is what makes us bond. so!



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Thrawn42689: Mozart = n00b

Try new crazy things out, and your life will be much better:

1.)Use Linux.
2.)Go back to Windows.
3.)Turn gay.
4.)Put butter on your bread before you even toast it.
5.)Become a cannibal.
6.)Eat your friend.
7.)Eat till your fat
8.)Go on a diet.
9.)Watch porno, then make your own.
10.)Get off of massassi


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I kindov feel like this to some extent too, but I do stuff like walking to work/school one day(or as far as is reasonable). Take a different route, and meet different people. If your life seems really boring, talk to some other people and see what they do(besides the stupid stuff).
I would suggest challenging yourself. Buy a puzzle with 1000 pieces and work it. Just make your brain work in ways that it hasn't in a while and maybe it will release some new chemicals. Just don't end things, I couldn't imagine anything more boring than being dead.

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"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing." - Edmund Burke

"Never let your sense of morals prevent you from doing what is right." -Isaac Asimov

Not to hijack, but I feel almost completely the same, except I also feel like life just isn't worth my time. I just keep seeing myself dying just to figure out what's left. It sucks.

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One note: I can't remember being bored before I existed.

Some interesting responses i've seen. And since today is my final day of college, I might be able to try out a few new places and things over the next couple of months. Although I have been spending a few weeks at my friends new house, and it was good for a time, after a while, it returns to the same feeling i felt before about the place. Being creative in some form is helpful too, as Martyn said (and i'll trust his judgment, since he is well aware of the hellhole i reside in).

MY only niggle with a lot of the advice is that a lot of people who suggest this stuff seem to be enthusiastic about it... my problem is that my attention span is horrid (if i buy a new game, i'll play it for about a fortnight, on and off, then tire of it) the same goes for most things in life, such as foods, girlfriends, places and partys (i always seem to leave early).

Bah, i'm tired of ranting.

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Drugs & Stupidity, Tons of it.

You need a hobby. Forget distracting yourself with computer games and video games. They offer entertainment, but no satisfaction. You need to do something contructive.

Or, you could start doing drugs. That's always fun for a while too.

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"If there's one thing I've learned it's this - you just can't shake hands with a fist" - David Allen Coe

Volunteer. Serve for others and forget about yourself -- you'll find the satisfaction you're looking for.

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Hey hey, there's always Diggerland just up the road...

At least if you're finishing college you've got the perfect opportunity to do something new, I know Universiry's not for everyone, but it let me get out of the boring hole I used to live in (before I came to Durham...hmmmm), make new friends, find new interests, and a new life!

I used to be quite shy, but now I've started doing improvised comedy shows! Talk about a turn around!! I've got mates who're in the skydiving club, a few canooists (rapids and stuff), there's almost anything you want, you just need to look for it

You'll come around, life's not that bad

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If at first you don't succeed, lower your standards.

Aside from saying, I really can relate to everything you're saying, I do have one other piece to add to this discussion, Chaz's sig up there seems to say something that works rather well with a way out of this type of thinking.



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"I like my women how I like my coffee, in a plastic cup." - Eddie Izzard

You need a girlfriend.

I used to feel much as you described (when I was a bit younger), but I met a wonderful girl, started college, and started focusing on the positive things about life. It was more of a realization in my case. At one time I was considered to be "clinically depressed" and even had to take anger management due to an assault charge that caused me to find myself in jail. You may not be able to relate to me on that level, but you can at least see that for many people, things get better. It's not going to hurt you to try, is it? Focus on the positive things all around you. It's not bad to be aware of negative things, but you shouldn't become obsessed with them (like you seem to be doing, judging by your thoughts).

I can find excitement in the most simple of things. Reading a good book, watching a good movie, hiking and camping, canoeing, taking karate and yoga, or just socializing with friends, family, and my girlfriend. I've always thought of the simple things in life as being the most rewarding and important. To each their own.

Good luck with your battle...



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Cheers Mentat... those were good words.

Oh, Gothicx... i'm no good with relationships, I don't like physical contact, I can't stand people touching me... not even my parents.

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Drugs & Stupidity, Tons of it.

Pick up a copy of "Three Philosophies of Life", written by Peter Kreeft. I just finished a yearlong class that focused on this book - basically, it deals with finding meaning in life. I can't really begin to explain it adequately; it's something you have to read for yourself. Do it.. you won't be sorry!

SEX

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Thanks man, even I'll read that now



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Saberopus: omfq musical genuis j00 >mozart
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Mystic is right, Sex is a good answer.

Another serious answer is counciling. The thearapists I'm friends with (NOT A PATIENT OF, they are literally my friends) always say that they don't like the internet because there are so many posts just like this one. People are so distanced from what they care about and so fed up with just "living" that they need to share with people who may or may not care. All of my friends just wish the kids would talk to their parents or a councilor about what they feel and see what an older, more experianced person thinks. Most of the time, asking for serious mental help on a message board will get the few dark comedians with the message, "Go jump off a bridge."

Keep faith in the things you like to do, and do them often. School, work, and other repeative tasks are necessary in life just because of the functions they fulfill, but keeping an optimisic outlook on life, no matter what it throws you, is the best course of action.

Find God if you need him, he's normally there.

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"If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?"

i havent read the rest of the thread, so this may have been said before. what you described sounds a lot like a mild case of depression. nothing some mild anti-depressants couldnt take care of. i dont normally suggest drugs, but counseling is probably a bit much from the sound of it. it sounds more like a simple chemical imbalance. try exercising, if you feel better at all while doing it and/or shortly after, medication would probably help you out.

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Therapy won't help, life really does suck and it really is meaningless. Everybody is a complete fraud and not worth talking to. As you get older your social life will start to disappear until your work becomes your life, and then you'll probably shut down and spend your retirement in an old folks home until you give up and die.

The secret to surviving it is to spend every penny that you get on various consumer items. This serves to entertain you until the inevitable painful death and prevents your job from totally consuming your life. Secondly, it also ensures that money keeps flowing to the rich people, which is all anybody thinks we're really good for anyway.

Soylent green's made of people d00d.

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You know what's spooky? King Solomon said almost that exact thing roughly 3000 years ago...

I wouldn't bring it up except that that's one of my favorite passages in all of written literature.

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Read "Man's Search for Meaning" by Victor Frankl. Good book. I think it would explain a lot about your situation.

And enough of this Nihilism! Even if life IS meaningless, it's our duty to create meaning. I find Theism to be a good answer, but if you don't believe in God, you'll have to try Exestentialism, in all its 'Carpe Diem' silliness.



[This message has been edited by Janitor Bob (edited May 22, 2004).]

I dont know why, but when I read this I busted out laughing. I just imagined someone with a big hick accent saying it... and by someone I meant one of my friends, so... it was funny to me.

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