Yes, this is fairly similar to a weblog posting; however, I am also asking for opinions and help with this particular situation. I know that people will agree with my opinion that I am an idiot and a fool, but that kind of thing really doesn't help me. Sadly, it is the truth.
First, some backstory.
Two months ago, my girlfriend at the time, Lisa, was forced to break up with me by her parents over something that happened into which I will not go. However, suffice to say that neither her nor I wanted this. Even with her being eighteen, her parents did everything in their power to prevent us from even speaking to each other. I was avowed to try, however, because I loved her greatly. Then came the time when she was entirely unable to speak to me in any way, shape, or form for three weeks. In this three weeks was my birthday. I never got a happy birthday from her; no card, nothing. There was nothing. After this, my feelings truely began to fade -- they had been slowly dissipating beforehand, but once this happened, they quickly disappeared. Though it had been coming for a while, last night I permanently removed any chance of us ever getting back together.
But over the past while, I have found myself rapidly falling for someone else. First off -- I don't really know if this would be a rebound; I've had a lot of girlfriends before, and this doesn't really feel like that. However, I don't know. Second, she happens to live quite a nice distance away from me -- eight to eighteen hours. She is perhaps the most amazing person I have ever met, online or in the real world. She has an awesome sense of humour, she is really caring, she is nice, she is fun; in essence, she is beautiful inside and out -- and I've never even met her in the real world. I know she is as she represents, and not some lying scumbag forty-year-old guy, because I have spoken to her on the phone and I know others who know her well. Some here, actually. There really isn't any hope for this, and yet, I still have feelings for her -- and I think that she has them for me, although she keeps them in check. I've never been terribly good at that. Were we closer, I would most definately ask her out. Theoretically, I should meet her in January -- hopefully. But I really just don't know what to do about the whole situation. Any useful help anyone can offer me?
Thanks.
First, some backstory.
Two months ago, my girlfriend at the time, Lisa, was forced to break up with me by her parents over something that happened into which I will not go. However, suffice to say that neither her nor I wanted this. Even with her being eighteen, her parents did everything in their power to prevent us from even speaking to each other. I was avowed to try, however, because I loved her greatly. Then came the time when she was entirely unable to speak to me in any way, shape, or form for three weeks. In this three weeks was my birthday. I never got a happy birthday from her; no card, nothing. There was nothing. After this, my feelings truely began to fade -- they had been slowly dissipating beforehand, but once this happened, they quickly disappeared. Though it had been coming for a while, last night I permanently removed any chance of us ever getting back together.
But over the past while, I have found myself rapidly falling for someone else. First off -- I don't really know if this would be a rebound; I've had a lot of girlfriends before, and this doesn't really feel like that. However, I don't know. Second, she happens to live quite a nice distance away from me -- eight to eighteen hours. She is perhaps the most amazing person I have ever met, online or in the real world. She has an awesome sense of humour, she is really caring, she is nice, she is fun; in essence, she is beautiful inside and out -- and I've never even met her in the real world. I know she is as she represents, and not some lying scumbag forty-year-old guy, because I have spoken to her on the phone and I know others who know her well. Some here, actually. There really isn't any hope for this, and yet, I still have feelings for her -- and I think that she has them for me, although she keeps them in check. I've never been terribly good at that. Were we closer, I would most definately ask her out. Theoretically, I should meet her in January -- hopefully. But I really just don't know what to do about the whole situation. Any useful help anyone can offer me?
Thanks.
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His pot is blacker than his kettle!
His pot is blacker than his kettle!