This is going to be a two-part thread.
The first part is how i've changed in character. I'm sure that most of you remember how i was when I first came here (no need to dwell on the past, especially at this point) but lately, things have changed in my life. I was a Christian when I was a kid, but during my teen years, I started hanging with the wrong people. As a result, my life got way off track and I did things that I now regret. I've turned my back on what I used to be and what I used to do and I've reaffirmed my faith. I'm trying to make it clear that I'm not the same man that I used to be. That's why I had my title changed.
The second part is not good news, unfortunately. I've recently (within the past week) found out that I have fairly severe Dyspraxia. This is a neurological condition that impairs fine motor control, affecting 2% -8% of the population. This means that people with this condition (myself included) have fairly bad coordination, slow reaction time (Now I know why I was never any good at JK multiplayer), poor spacial awareness, and trouble keeping balance while standing up.
People with dyspraxia are not very athletic and activities like catching or hitting a ball are difficult. (as a kid, this was true for me) As a result, I'm constantly dropping things and knocking things over.
Other factors that dyspraxics have to put up with is an over-sensitivity to light, touch, sound, and other senses. I hate bright light, and the slightest tough gets my attention. Speaking abilities, short-term memory, and organizational abilities are adversely affected as well in my case. I have problems of some extent with every category of dyspraxia.
I was born with this and will always have it (there is no cure, short of somehow getting a new body, which is rather difficult these days). I managed to cope fairly well earlier in life because the body naturally learns how to compensate for reduced balance, etc.
Dyspraxia is normally diagnosed and treated to some extent fairly early in life, but since mine was not discovered until recently, there is no real treatment that can be administered since after a certain age which I have already passed your neural system matures and treatment is designed to change a still-developing neural system.
A side affect of dyspraxia is that it is sometimes accompanied by hypotonia (which is chronically low muscle tone that no amount of working out/weightlifting will fix). I also have this condition. This means that lately I've had to lean on things for support quite often, and I get tired fairly easily. When I was younger I was more active, so hypotonia didn't bother me too much. However, since I'm sitting in class or at work all day with less time to exercise in more recent times, it's been getting worse.
I'm not angry about it, as my faith makes me realize that God has a reason for doing this to me, and since there is no cure, there's no point in being upset or angry about it. I can still do the things I did before (for the time being) but now that I'm aware of this condition, I have to take certain precautions. (For one, I can't really drink anymore-- my coordination is impaired as it is, and if I drink too much I could get hurt since booze impairs my balance and coordination even more), and I have to be more careful on stairs and wet floors since dyspraxic people tend to fall really easily.
The first part is how i've changed in character. I'm sure that most of you remember how i was when I first came here (no need to dwell on the past, especially at this point) but lately, things have changed in my life. I was a Christian when I was a kid, but during my teen years, I started hanging with the wrong people. As a result, my life got way off track and I did things that I now regret. I've turned my back on what I used to be and what I used to do and I've reaffirmed my faith. I'm trying to make it clear that I'm not the same man that I used to be. That's why I had my title changed.
The second part is not good news, unfortunately. I've recently (within the past week) found out that I have fairly severe Dyspraxia. This is a neurological condition that impairs fine motor control, affecting 2% -8% of the population. This means that people with this condition (myself included) have fairly bad coordination, slow reaction time (Now I know why I was never any good at JK multiplayer), poor spacial awareness, and trouble keeping balance while standing up.
People with dyspraxia are not very athletic and activities like catching or hitting a ball are difficult. (as a kid, this was true for me) As a result, I'm constantly dropping things and knocking things over.
Other factors that dyspraxics have to put up with is an over-sensitivity to light, touch, sound, and other senses. I hate bright light, and the slightest tough gets my attention. Speaking abilities, short-term memory, and organizational abilities are adversely affected as well in my case. I have problems of some extent with every category of dyspraxia.
I was born with this and will always have it (there is no cure, short of somehow getting a new body, which is rather difficult these days). I managed to cope fairly well earlier in life because the body naturally learns how to compensate for reduced balance, etc.
Dyspraxia is normally diagnosed and treated to some extent fairly early in life, but since mine was not discovered until recently, there is no real treatment that can be administered since after a certain age which I have already passed your neural system matures and treatment is designed to change a still-developing neural system.
A side affect of dyspraxia is that it is sometimes accompanied by hypotonia (which is chronically low muscle tone that no amount of working out/weightlifting will fix). I also have this condition. This means that lately I've had to lean on things for support quite often, and I get tired fairly easily. When I was younger I was more active, so hypotonia didn't bother me too much. However, since I'm sitting in class or at work all day with less time to exercise in more recent times, it's been getting worse.
I'm not angry about it, as my faith makes me realize that God has a reason for doing this to me, and since there is no cure, there's no point in being upset or angry about it. I can still do the things I did before (for the time being) but now that I'm aware of this condition, I have to take certain precautions. (For one, I can't really drink anymore-- my coordination is impaired as it is, and if I drink too much I could get hurt since booze impairs my balance and coordination even more), and I have to be more careful on stairs and wet floors since dyspraxic people tend to fall really easily.