Uh huh, no problem.
It's fascinating to me, the differences between a conditioned psyche and a normal, natural, healthy one. After traumatic events, normal people often recall "it all happening so fast". They can't always remember what went on.
However, people like myself, often remember vivid detail, and time seems to slow down. This is because that "horror filter" has been altered, broken down, or destroyed through operant conditioning. It's not that my brain is moving faster. It's that my mind is not blocking out the gruesome sensory input. This is part of why you remember more and time went slower as a kid. You were taking in more things. You didn't take as much of the world around you for granted as you do now. Not only do I process it differently, but it is usually stored readily available. This comes from lots of training that tells me that I might need to draw on this experience at any time.
There are other reasons that some people remember more or react faster, but it generally has to do with conditioning, or them being an anti-social type in the first place.
I dunno, all the live med drills with ridiculously realistic mock patients, the bear pits and sparring, bad situations, video games and movies have really ****ed me up. For the better I feel, I am more able to assess and react in tense situations like injuries and accidents. However, lots of things trouble me afterwards. My newest idea that I want to try is involving eye gouges.
Even hard hitting mother****ers that I know, you know, pliers and blowtorch types, often say that they don't know if they could stick their thumb in an eye socket and swish things up. I've found that taking someone who has stabbed someone before, and having them stab a bag of sidewalk salt that I am holding, while I act realistically, gives them similar feelings they had when stabbing someone. I want to try the same thing but with grapefruits or oranges taped over my eyes and see if it breaks down that resistance to people being able to commit that act.
Epstein didn't kill himself.