lifeless? Like there's something missing that you just can't grasp, just can't comprehend. Because that's how it is for me now.

I've got tons of friends, I'm doing well in my classes, yet I wake up every morning, and all I want to do is go back to sleep. Because at least in my dreams I have freedom, I can make what isn't there, I can shape everything as I want it. Also in sleep, there's no pain, no horror, no fear, no anything. Just a third person view on a fantastic (read, form of fantasy) life completely of your own design.

I don't know what it is, I've been hoping it's the lack of a companion, but somehow I can't bring myself to truly believe that. I don't know, I've been reserving saying anything, because I figured people would be like "We don't care" ":rolleyes" or "Wow, you and everyone else on earth, it's called life", but...I don't know. It's starting to get to me. It seems the only three things I look forward to anymore are my computer, reading, and sleeping.

The amount of apathy in my life is just sickening, at the moment.

I just had to get this out of me in some form or another, post if you feel it pertinent, flame if you don't, troll if you will.

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sounds like you have some depression setting in. Better get to a shrink and get it taken care of before it gets worse.



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I have found that you can transform your character solely by the power of belief: as you believe yourself to be, so you shall become over time.

I've reached a point in my life when I no longer had any dreams or anything to look foward to. I realized that my life was completely pointless, and that I might as well die tomorrow, and it would make no difference. I wasn't depressed at all, I was just completely numb, as if I'd completely lost my ability to have emotions. It's just really bizzare.

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ANAKIN: What? You fool, I told you NO CROUTONS! Aaaaaaargh!

Most people feel that way our age, it's normal. If it really gets to you, see someone about it. Doesn't have to be a doctor, just SOMEONE who can talk to you about the seemingly meaningless crap that happens in life. Keep a journal, that really helps a lot, actually. Gives me a reason to do something, so I can write about something other than 'brian was a real *** online today, and wouldn't give me the SotD script that he promised 2 months ago."

JediKirby

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Proud Leader of the Minnessassian Council

Live on, Adam.

Yeah, only thing is, I'm tired of it. I've been like this for the last 2 years. And kirby, I would, but I just wouldn't care enough to keep one.

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I'm not an actor. I just play one on TV.

I've felt like that for the last couple years. It's like there's something out there, just beyond my reach...and if I can just find it, everything will be alright. And yet, no matter how hard I look, I just can't find whatever 'it' is.

Whatever this is, it's destroying me. I don't sleep well anymore, I've lost basically all interest in school, I've been getting really irritable, snapping at anyone at the slightest provocation. I just don't know how long I can deal with this.

So, you have my sympathies.


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Some of you should learn to think a bit and discover - *gasp* - that someone can dislike Michael Moore, Kerry, and Bush!
-Wolfy

Nah man, you arent alone. I feel like that all the time. And I dont need to see anyone about it either, so don't jump to conclusions. Sometimes you are just missing something...some people know what they are missing, and look to hard and wont get it, and some people just dont know what it is..but..ya

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In Tribute to Adam Sliger. Rest in Peace

10/7/85 - 12/9/03

Yea, I feel lifeless too. I'm bored with school and my office job. So I'm going to make a business. I'm still deciding about college. I might even just go and say screw my plan to be an Engineer and throw myself into business management and entrepreneurship in college and start my own venture. I don't want to live my life as someone elses employee hoping for a $2 raise and getting nothing in return for hard work. I want to work hard, influence what I do, and be challenged throughout life.

Get a girlfriend.

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Your humble opinion is wrong.

Well, most Christians would tell you that you feel that way because you don't have God in your life. Seeing how Christians seem to get ripped to pieces here on this forums, I'll refrain from preaching to you unless you really want to hear it.

Anyway, even though I am a Christian myself, I know how you feel. I'm sure everyone feels that sort of emptiness every now and then. Lately, I'm been depressed because I'm at the point in my life where I feel worthless. I would go into detail but I rather not since I'm really not in the mood to get all mushy on you people. Anyway, whatever problem that you are having, I'm sure it will go away in time or something will come along to help you get out of your funk.

-- SavageX

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http://geocities.com/savagex378

SavageX: Worthless? Some of my life's best memories come from playing Space Soldiers 3.

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[This message has been edited by Mystic0 (edited August 31, 2004).]

Savage: That's not what it is. I know what that feels like, this is a completely different feeling.

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Some of you should learn to think a bit and discover - *gasp* - that someone can dislike Michael Moore, Kerry, and Bush!
-Wolfy

Lets not preach here. I am very Christian, and I can tell you my emptiness has nothing to do with God not being in myself. Why would I pray to him to help me find it if he isnt there? Religion is not even and issue here.

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In Tribute to Adam Sliger. Rest in Peace

10/7/85 - 12/9/03

If your life is emotions, your life is just chemicals in your head. If this is true wouldn't the logical thing to do be to get drugs? If you care about actual meaning though, I'm afraid you won't find any as an atheist.

I'm confused by your post. You say your are "Christian" but you then say God isn't there so what are you trying to get at?

-- SavageX

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http://geocities.com/savagex378

Nothing to be confused by, I was asking a rhetorical question.

Let say it again...if God wasn't in me, why would I pray to him to help me find a way? Seems pointless. Basically I am saying, he is there.

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In Tribute to Adam Sliger. Rest in Peace

10/7/85 - 12/9/03

No offense, but that's kind of a stupid question. Just because God isn't in you doesn't mean it's pointless to pray to him. He is always there, knocking at the door to your heart. There is no excuse to not pray to him just because he isn't in you. Conversion doesn't take years, it can happen in a blink of a eye.

-- SavageX

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"...and if you don't like that, then you need to be slugged in the face repeatedly, until my hands are soaked in blood. Have a nice day!"
http://geocities.com/savagex378

Yeah, I know how that feels. My solution to it was to just ride it out. Of course, I can't sit here and tell you to do the same, because I don't really know your situation. Still, it's entirely possible that this will just end eventually, and before long you won't even remember what it felt like.

On the other hand, if you're worried about it, and you don't think it's going to just end like that, you always have the option to talk to someone. I don't know if I'd recommend talking to a shrink right away, but that's your call.

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SavageX: Ubuu is just saying that nobody would pray to god if they don't believe that god exists.

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Your humble opinion is wrong.

If burning piles of screaming infants isn't a meaning, I don't know what is.

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Corrupting the kiddies since '97

I might have missed something, but it seems like you think everyone is an atheist? And, you think all atheist are dirty druggies?

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"This world is made of love and peace!"
"Let's live today, let's live tomorrow, and let's live the day after that, even if it means living in eternal pain."
- Vash the Stampede

I am equally confused by Obi's statement

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I'm not an actor. I just play one on TV.

It may not be a meaning, but it smells delicious!



I suppose the natural meaning of spreading DNA is enough for me.

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Drugs help to numb you. You start to not care about not caring. I dunno, I used to be the same way. I woke up every day and wanted to put a gun to my head but every day I came up with a reason not to. The same reason every day. I didn't really want to. I did take medication for about 2 months, by force. Once I was finally able to rationalize with my parents that I felt even worse because I was taking drugs to deal with issues instead of just facing them I stopped taking them. And I felt better real soon. About the time when I realized that the point of living is just to live. There's nothing really to miss, or not have. I don't want to work, but I understand that it's a necessity in today's society. You really do need money to survive. So I work enough to survive and have fun. It works for me. It keeps me happy. And so does the pot. But seriously, all you need to do is find what you think you're missing. You'll come to the realize that you weren't really missing it. And you'll feel better. Or like an idiot for looking so long. But the question will be answered and you can move on with your life.

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That made me smile XD

And thanks guys, I guess I'm just feeling really down at the moment. Maybe if the girl I asked out says yes, everything will change. Hopefully. We'll see though.

And for the record, I'm Christian.

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Zully nails it. the point to live is to live. nothing more nothing less. you live to live and enjoy that life to the fullest by every moment.

'least that's how I see it.


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Wake up, rise and shine, Gotta take another pint, Dig heads and watch out for the night.

No offense, but thats a retarded assumption. In no way did I say that it is retarded to pray to god if you believe he isnt there. I simply said why would I, not you, not my sister, not Michael Jordan, but I pray to God if I knew he wasn't there. Thats a personal thing. Thing is, I know he is there so I do.

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In Tribute to Adam Sliger. Rest in Peace

10/7/85 - 12/9/03

*sigh* i was like you too man. and there is hope. im only 17, but i went through a lot of ****. i remeber 2 years ago i would be alone and just cry sometimes. after a few years of deoression i turned to pot. i smoked like a chiminy. boy that only made things worst. the addiction got deeper and deeper to the point when i was smoking to be straight. i still do smoke sometimes to be straight. when i dont smoke i feel sad. i have cut down a lot though since then, and i have a lovley girlfriend. something does still seem missing on the inside. i feel like im gonna fail at life i guess. all that college bull**** really gots me in a funk. but i guess things do still make me happy. like you Massassians, you always brighten up my day:-). the main point is, you can be happy. you just gotta get something that you love and grasp it. for instance i have a passion for film making. and i went with that and hopefully it will get me somewhere.

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You just gotta find something to do. Hell, I was a social nutcase before i found guitar. ever since then I turned 180° and I'm a completely different person.

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Wake up, rise and shine, Gotta take another pint, Dig heads and watch out for the night.

Yeah, music is what makes me run. I always look forward to listening to music and making it.

I've also made some goals that I plan to accomplish, and the thought that one day I will finish those goals and living my dream makes me a very happy person and keeps me going.

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<3 Zully, he hit it perfect.

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jEDIkIRBY - Putting the Romance back into Necromancer.
Proud Leader of the Minnessassian Council

Live on, Adam.

Well, the right tunes hit it perfectly, and brought me at least somewhat out of my funk. That and a bit of oldschool gaming with some StarCraft.

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