This isn't my usual name in massassi, but this situation is so horrific and sickeneing that I cannot possibly use my own name. And if anyone figures out who this is, please don't give the game away.

Today, I tried to talked my 17 year old brother out of suicide. But it failed. He has been acting weird recently, he has taken weed for years, I never knew exactly why. It was to forget something that happened in his past.
Me and mum saw that he had started drinking a HELL of a lot. And today, around 8 pm, he started drinking loads of beer. My mum had a headache, and went to get some painkillers. She opened the draw, and they were all gone. We suddenly realised, my brother had drunk 4 beers and more than 20 painkillers!!!
Enough to kill him.

When my mum went upstairs, he kicked her out the room. he started screaming and crying that he was going to die, and had just phoned up all his old friends to say goodbye.
I ran upstairs because we found out he had a knife in his room and was going to slit in wrists.

Then, I found out. Why he had taken drugs, and why he had turned out the way he has, so angry and f***** up in the head.

My brother was raped by an older pupil when he was 7 years old.

And I knew the person who did it cos he told us his name.

He never told us. This happened at the same Boarding school i went to. And my brother (although drugged up and drunk and hysterical at the time) also said the headmaster knew and had covered it up.

He said some other stuff too I cant mention.

We tried to talk him out of it but nothing worked. he got worse and more violent, and crying taht he was going to die at midnight, and that he finally had the courage to do it.
I thought he was lying.
He was not.
But when my mum went out of the room to phone the paramedics and the cops (cos he was getting violent), my brother picked up the knife. If I had not been there, my brother would have stabbed himself. I had to grab the knife, slicing my hand in the process, and pull it off of him.

Then the police came. I had to hold him whilst they handcuffed him. They took him away kicking and screaming. They arrested him for assaulting a police officer, and when he was being driven to hospital he threatened the cops he'd find out where they lived and slit their throats.

My brother is gone. He will be sent away to a mental institute and I may never see him again. He cannot come home, and I dont want to see him for a long time, until he gets his head sorted out, if he ever does.

The pain of being dumped by some girl or arguing with your parents or even loosing friends, is nothing compared to the pain of loosing your brother, and finding out what I have tonight, and seeing him held on the floor to be sedated.

I hope for your sake massassians, this has put your own problems in perspective. Next time you want to moan cos your mom won't buy you a faster computer or you do badly in colege tests, don't.

I'm sorry if this post is too much for this forum.

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[This message has been edited by Voivode_Kartarirya (edited January 05, 2004).]

Oh man, that is heavy. I am so terribly sorry.

But try not to assume you won't ever see or talk to him again. With the right help, he will recover.

um... that's just kind of gross, sad times for your brother, hope it works out. Is there anything you guys can do to the headmaster/pupil like legal action?

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<< start the revolution >>

Deal with suicidal siblings is..well..hell...and I understand your anger as I have felt it too. It does ease over time thankfully. I hope your brother gets the help he needs and your family can find the support to get through this difficult stretch.

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Cantina Cloud | BCF | The Massassian & A Very Massassian Xmas
Corrupting the kiddies since '97

My sympathies.

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The future is here, and all bets are off.

That IS pretty messed up, it just shows how badly kids can be messed up when they're young.

I'm glad your brother didn't manage to kill himself though. How's your hand, by the way?

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Duel Zero : Released the beta. Probably the end of it. Not to worry though, I'm working on Randsaber, which is a lot better.

To keep myself saying something that doesn't make any sense, I'll copy GBK.

My symphaties

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<landfish> FastGamerr > Satan

Damn. That's a lot to take in. You need to get your brother some help whether he wants in or not. He's not in his right mind.



Hope it all works itself out.

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I'm not an actor. I just play one on TV.

Think happy thoughts

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The Massassi-Map
There is no spoon.

like, "i'm glad my mom had a headache." seriously, it's good to look for the silver lining, there is ALWAYS a silver lining.

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Seems a little over dramatic. Anonomously posting and preaching... Could be true but we'll never know. If it is I'm sorry you have to deal with it. There certainly are some sick SOBs in the world.

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yes i agree... i'm sorry if this really is true... but since threads like ubuus... somethings just seem too much

Anyways i would agree with the silver lining bit. It could have been worse

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Rah!

That really sucks, man. I'm sorry. Something needs to be done to that head master, that's f***ing sick. You really showed bravery, though, saving your brother's life from the knife like that. I hope you and your brother find happier times soon.

Don't even go there. My fictional story is no where near as intense as this event. Please don't insult the kid.

Dude, I really hope the best for you and your family, especially your brother. Its bringing tears to my eyes now...my brother and sister and I argue a lot and say a lot of things...but I don't know what I would do if something like this happened...almost feels like I would become suicidal myself. Stay strong, keep your head up, and stay close with your family. Only you as a group will be able to get through this pain.


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In Tribute to Adam Sliger. Rest in Peace

10/7/85 - 12/9/03

That's terrible...I hope the best for you.

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"Hass, alkoss, gyarapíts: s a haza fényre derûl!"

-Kölcsey Ferenc

I can't think of anything to say except that I hope this all works out somehow. You have our sympathies.

Hope your hand is ok, too.

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It's Peanut Butter Jelly Time!
/Banana starts dancing

Sometimes we forget how fortunate many of us really are, and it takes a tale like this to remind us what a cruel, twisted place the world can be sometimes. I'm sorry for what has happened to your brother and your family. What he claims was done to him makes me feel sick about being human.

My hand is fine. I don't know where he is right now, I think he may stay in hospital. It still all feels like a dream, or a nightmare, and i can't believe what has happened to him, why he didnt say anything, and why this happens to anyone.
Now I think about it, if he was telling the truth, maybe I should have let him die. Because to live with something like that would be agonising every day, which is why he tried to escape using drugs and even video games.

On a lighter note though, I really fancied the female cop who came round to the house. But anyway...

Life sucks.

Jeebus... it's a real pity the cop had to go without you telling her you had a bomb in your pants. (Guess the line reference and you win a cookie.)

But otherwise, yeah. That really sucks. But how guilty would you have felt if he died because you let him (by not e.g. stopping him stabbing himself)?

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Yeah, but you know what? This one, this one right here, this was my dream, my wish, and it didn't come true. So I'm takin' it back. I'm takin' 'em all back.