--I apologize Dragonfly if I made you angery by that remark. I was just describing my impression. If you did show them to Merlin (Merlin is basically me, he is an extension of who I am), Why? If you have plans for doing something with this in the story, please e-mail me and tell me what it is you are planning so I can work with it and work it better into what I write.
You see for me, I am not just writing a story. For me as an author I pour part of my self (even part of my soul) into my characters like Merlin, how he feels toward Ji'tory spring directly from in my mind assuming Ji'tory is real, then acting toward her as I would as Merlin. Loving her as a daughter, denfending her like a knight, shouting with righteous anger like a prophet in the wilderness. I am not married. I have no children, so I've never loved a real child as a daughter. But my mind is so vivid and my emotions so empathic I feel as though it were real. I don't read a story, I live it. I don't write a story, I become it with a passion. And when I write a Bazaal, I open up that part of me that is evil. And I can feel the power of evil in my hands. And I feel as if I could stretch out my hand a destroy. And after I push back that part of me, my hands still tingle and I still feel the rush of power. When I write with such passion I want to make the whole story coherent. I want to fill its pages with the passion of love and the terror of evil. That is why I want to understand you. I don't want you to write about your characters, I desire you to write yourself. When I wrote those sections like that scene on the beach with Ji'tory, or the scene in the monestary when Bazaal speaks. I wanted to make those scenes move the readers who read them. Do they? I am sorry. I just needed to write from the heart what I feel and experince. If you disagree, I ask your forgiveness.
You see for me, I am not just writing a story. For me as an author I pour part of my self (even part of my soul) into my characters like Merlin, how he feels toward Ji'tory spring directly from in my mind assuming Ji'tory is real, then acting toward her as I would as Merlin. Loving her as a daughter, denfending her like a knight, shouting with righteous anger like a prophet in the wilderness. I am not married. I have no children, so I've never loved a real child as a daughter. But my mind is so vivid and my emotions so empathic I feel as though it were real. I don't read a story, I live it. I don't write a story, I become it with a passion. And when I write a Bazaal, I open up that part of me that is evil. And I can feel the power of evil in my hands. And I feel as if I could stretch out my hand a destroy. And after I push back that part of me, my hands still tingle and I still feel the rush of power. When I write with such passion I want to make the whole story coherent. I want to fill its pages with the passion of love and the terror of evil. That is why I want to understand you. I don't want you to write about your characters, I desire you to write yourself. When I wrote those sections like that scene on the beach with Ji'tory, or the scene in the monestary when Bazaal speaks. I wanted to make those scenes move the readers who read them. Do they? I am sorry. I just needed to write from the heart what I feel and experince. If you disagree, I ask your forgiveness.
"I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree that the law is good. So then it is no longer I that do it, but sin that which dwells within me, that is, in my flesh. I can will what is right, but I cannot do it. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I do. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I that do it, but sin which dwells within me."
~St. Paul to the church in Rome recorded in Romans 7:15-20.
So that we are set free from sin by Jesus, so we celebrate his birth on Christmas. Remeber this day with joy, when the angels sang, peace on earth good will toward men.
~Merlin
~St. Paul to the church in Rome recorded in Romans 7:15-20.
So that we are set free from sin by Jesus, so we celebrate his birth on Christmas. Remeber this day with joy, when the angels sang, peace on earth good will toward men.
~Merlin